Quarantine DAY 53: SO Done 😢

Trying REALLY hard to avoid all the chaotic fear bullshit out there. HA! People literally send me these ā€˜home tests’ that people are doing on masks, to try and prove how wrong I am. I DO NOT listen to ā€˜home testing’ experiments!!!!!! REAL Scientific studies THANK YOU KINDLY šŸ¤“

And why do people keep trying to convince me that I’m wrong about what’s happening in hospitals?!!!! Video after video sent to me of ā€˜doctors’ and ā€˜nurses’ stating they were in the COVID hospitals, describing the horrific care. With all the blame on healthcare workers. I truly believe these people must be actors. Such absolute BS!

But Why??!! Why do they send me these bits of ā€œknowledgeā€? Because they don’t want to believe a virus is causing havoc. They want to blame a person. They want to blame the doctors. The hospitals. The nurses. The horrid care COVID patients are apparently getting from non-licensed staff.

So, if I breakdown and admit that they’re right. Then. Then they know who to blame. Then their FEAR - turned into ANGER - will be legitimized.

Guess what?
We are GRIEVING!!
The loss of friends/family/co-workers, jobs, businesses, and normal routines of schools, offices, leisurely strolls without a mask.
ANGER is all up in that Grieving thing.

For me . . . OMG. NOW. NOW that my assignment is finished. NOW all the emotions are running through!!!!!! All the emotions of a million things this year. Because I’m allowing them to flow through like water.

TODAY’s theme is ANGER 😔

I’ve had it with ā€œfriendsā€ suggestions and conspiracy theories. Thick boundaries to avoid anybody else’s ā€œdirty water (emotions)ā€ from invading my space. NOT TODAY!

And tomorrow may look completely different. But I’m committed to letting the Water flow through this week. And recognizing. What needs to flow out with it.

Nancy Salmons