Quarantine DAY 53: SO Done š¢
Trying REALLY hard to avoid all the chaotic fear bullshit out there. HA! People literally send me these āhome testsā that people are doing on masks, to try and prove how wrong I am. I DO NOT listen to āhome testingā experiments!!!!!! REAL Scientific studies THANK YOU KINDLY š¤
And why do people keep trying to convince me that Iām wrong about whatās happening in hospitals?!!!! Video after video sent to me of ādoctorsā and ānursesā stating they were in the COVID hospitals, describing the horrific care. With all the blame on healthcare workers. I truly believe these people must be actors. Such absolute BS!
But Why??!! Why do they send me these bits of āknowledgeā? Because they donāt want to believe a virus is causing havoc. They want to blame a person. They want to blame the doctors. The hospitals. The nurses. The horrid care COVID patients are apparently getting from non-licensed staff.
So, if I breakdown and admit that theyāre right. Then. Then they know who to blame. Then their FEAR - turned into ANGER - will be legitimized.
Guess what?
We are GRIEVING!!
The loss of friends/family/co-workers, jobs, businesses, and normal routines of schools, offices, leisurely strolls without a mask.
ANGER is all up in that Grieving thing.
For me . . . OMG. NOW. NOW that my assignment is finished. NOW all the emotions are running through!!!!!! All the emotions of a million things this year. Because Iām allowing them to flow through like water.
TODAYās theme is ANGER š”
Iāve had it with āfriendsā suggestions and conspiracy theories. Thick boundaries to avoid anybody elseās ādirty water (emotions)ā from invading my space. NOT TODAY!
And tomorrow may look completely different. But Iām committed to letting the Water flow through this week. And recognizing. What needs to flow out with it.